rawr.
everyones in a bad mood
nowadays.
is it the weather?
or the fact that everyone is
not coping anymore, and
all at the same time?
maybe its just tired after
the crazy term everyone
had in school.
oh well.
my mood swings are relatively
under control though.
*er.if im not agitated that is...*
so not that bad ba.
what i cant stand is that i dunno
why but i keep losing the precious
time i need to mug.
i lose it stoning, training,
wasting time doing hell knows what.
and then when i try to catch up doing
work, ppl say im a crazy mugger.
im crazy la.i admit.
but im not a bloody mugger la.
im just doing what i need to do
to pass the mid years.
rawr.
yesterday was soccer match.
(:
yay.saw so many ppl at the stadium.
PAE ppl, cedarians,
ppl that i haven seen in a long long time.
but this is only the 2nd soccer
match i have watched this year.
like so sad life-ed.
but oh well, it was a good excuse
to slack off during soccer.
moreover its a school event.
hohoho.
the match ended at 2-1,
with mj claiming the long awaited
championship title.
i bet khai was freaking happy.
vj played well too, but it was the
few careless glitches that allowed
mj to win the match.
zaki was injured in the match ah.
haven really seen him so cannot
ask if he's ok.
i hope he is thou.
its sad enough having one emo
soccer boy in class.
no need to add to the figures.lol.
then went to eat with dawn jane
grace edinna at ajisen ramen.
hoho.happies.
i love good food.
it really makes my day. (:
but when i see the big hole
in my pocket its like GULP.
OH WELL.nevermind la.
the most i eat lesser this week.
it made my day happy.
thats what matters.
(: (: (:
i cried yesterday.
yup.
ok i know im making a
big bunch of ppl worried about me.
but i guess i needed that release.
i have been in a very bad mood
the ENTIRE week.
god knows how i stayed alive
when i most probably pissed
off a whole bunch of ppl with my
bad temper and intolerable behavior.
heh.
but i tink after crying things
became clearer la.
so its good i guess.
i realised i have been upset
over things that can be let go of.
things that affect my ability
to think rationally,
to perform at the things i need to.
I figured i just need the faith that
everything will turn out fine.
and just do what i am supposed to do.
i went to the temple today.
and picked up a magazine.
from there, i saw a quote
that made me think a lot.
it said 'one alone cannot
please the entire universe'.
it made a lot of sense suddenly.
like i realised everyone have
different expectations of everyone else.
so instead of following these numerous
and varying expectations,
i should just follow my heart.
and do what i deem as rite and impt.
and that is enough.
only when i am able to think and
be emotionally stable are others able to
respect and acknowledge me.
“The only real failure in life is not to
be true to the best one knows.”
the world is so small.
i saw tan chor theng's photo in syaf's blog.
lol.tgt with andy and the other marist guys.
i saw it and stunned for quite a while.
haha.stupid penguin ah.
so long never see u still look so penguinist.
ahahahaha.
if u see this i know u will kill me.
so i pray u never do.
muahaha.
ultra bad mood today.
sian.
i dont feel like talking to anyone.'
just rotting by myself at one corner.
whew.
finally reached end of the week.
i almost died.
i feel so irritable the whole week.
sorry ppl if i offended anybody.
i was irritated with myself,
the world, myself, the teachers,
myself, everyone else.
omg can.like so hoooorrrrible la.
i didnt mean it.really.
to be ranting away.
to zone out.
to throw temper for no big reason.
i shot like crap on wed and fri.
just spammed pellets and cards like mad.
got pissed with a certain
someone in yishun.rawr.
i guess shooting ppl will know who.
i feel that im wasting the club's $ lei.
like spam cards like that.
im the one using the most cards
and pellets, and my results for shooting
are slipping.
lucky my sch results so called catching up.
i keep feeling pressured by lots of things.
need to get rid of all the things.
STUDY.
TRAIN.
SLEEP.
dont tink about teachers, parents,
coachs, expectations, blahx.
JUST LIVE.
omg i really need that.
the past 1 mth has been a blur.
i think i lived like a zombie.
hohoho.
im so bored......doing homework.
omg really homework kills
my brain cells.
i have got 2 essays (GP + lit) to clear,
tmr got maths test and physics test.
O_o.
and i still have a mountain of
things to do.
jia you!
i must find the motivation to do all these stuff.
(:
a profile of ESFP ppl is shown below.(:
haha.found it while finding words to use for SGC.
ESFP are friendly, warm, active, and
enthusiastic.They are very giving and concerned
about others. They like to make others happy,
believing that "it is better to give than to receive."
Being on the receiving end may make them feel
self-conscious. They tend to be good at
comforting others, regardless of whether
others are in need.
ESFPs are aware of what is happening
around them and notice much that escapes
the eyes of others. They are tied into the present,
particularly with people, they may sense what is
happening with others before others know it.
They may also noticewhat is going on in
their environment and take delight in a spring flower,
a bird's song, or a bright fabric, pointing these
out in their enthusiastic way for others to enjoy.
They are popular and gregarious, and are often
busy in social activities with others.
As teenagers, they are likely to be instigators of
activities with their friends.
It is difficult to catch them sitting still.
They tend to be bright and sunny in disposition
and enjoylaughing at themselves and others.
It is hard for them to be "down," mainly because of
the excitement of each upcoming event.
ESFPs lead what might look like
"a charmed existence,' even when things are
not going well for them.
They live with the idea that "the glass is half full"
and seem to land on their feet, even when
they are not sure how.
They usually find a niche for themselves in any
situation because of their spontaneity
and flexibility. For ESFPs bring a liveliness to
groups to which they belong.
Life is meant to be enjoyed and
is not taken too seriously.
ESFPs often are able to interact with all ages,
backgrounds, and types of people.
Most individuals who connect with ESFPs
feel that they are treated as equals by them,
regardless of age or convention. They enjoy
sharingtheir love of life with others,
not just their mates and children.
People around them benefit from this.
ESFPs can be generous to a fault.
What is theirs is yours, and what is yours is
yours still. They give assistance to one
and all without expectation of a return, just as they love
freely without expecting something in return.
ESFPs seem to view life as an eternal
cornucopia from which flows an endless supply of
pleasures that requireno effort on
their part to insure.
ESFPs' tolerance for anxiety is the
lowest of all the types.
Anxiety is avoided by ignoring
the dark side of a situation as long as possible.
They are inclined to be somewhat
self-indulgent, but, rather than make an
outward show of resistance or make waves,
ESFPs will give apparent compliance-and then go
their own way to what they enjoy.
(omg this part is so true.): )
If the encouragement they receive for their
social life is more than the encouragement they
receive for their academic life, they may err on the
side of being too social.
(also quite valid.gulp.)
ok this is cool.hmmm.
should use it to improve myself.(:
jia you!mug hard!shoot well!
SLEEP!
